A woman, with her little girl and little boy standing beside her, along with a little baby boy curled up in her arms, walked towards her Toyota Sienna right next to mine and I couldn’t help but think to myself, “I guess I bought the wrong Sienna because I wasn’t granted that beautiful family of three children.” They were all smiling and enjoying each other. It made me so sad as I watched them and remembered the emptiness inside of me every single moment of every single day.

As they left, another woman came into the shop with her four small children, including a newborn baby, a little younger then Julian’s age, sitting in his baby car seat, smiling at his mommy. It is all around me. I can’t escape it. I wish God would at least grant me some peace from all of these situations. At least he could give me that.