This has got to stop!

I just can’t believe it…. I thought our days at the hospital were over but we were there yet again today, in the Emergency Room. This time it is my father. He fell off the ladder this afternoon and ended up in the ER with three cracked ribs and a collapsed lung. They are still running more tests to be sure that’s all that happened to him. It was so very difficult walking into that hospital and into that ER. The first thing I noticed were the stretchers out front. My heart started racing. When the chest x-ray man came into the room, I had images of all those chest x-rays they gave my poor Julian. They always came into our room during the middle of the night and early in the morning to give him x-rays. It was awful to watch them move his tiny, helpless body around and the tears coming down his cheeks. I was so tired of all those x-rays.

Today was difficult. It was supposed to be a happy day but ended up being a sad day. My father will be alright. It will take many weeks to heal, but his pain will heal. Mine has not healed nor will it ever heal.

Going into that hospital brought back so many bad memories. Watching my father in so much pain brought back even more memories. My father could verbalize “ouch” but my Julian couldn’t verbalize it… he just shed tears and had that look on his face, “Mommy, this hurts. Please help me”….

When is this going to stop? I am so tired of this. Why is this happening? I wish God would just leave me alone! I just want to be left alone and get some peace… just some peace. Every time I try to move forward, I always get pushed right back. It just doesn’t seem right. None of this seems right!

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5 thoughts on “This has got to stop!

  1. I hope your Father gets better soon! So sorry you had to go through this! My thoughts and prayers are with you all:))) Everything will be alright:)

  2. Oh LIz I am sorry for what is happening! I am sure your father will be ok soon,say hello to him.We always think of you,even if far we are close. ❤

  3. Hi Liz,

    If you are at my hospital PLEASE let me know if there is anything I can do. I am working all weekend and this week as well.

    —Lauren C.

    • Thanks Lauren. You are so sweet and I am so thankful. My father is at the other hospital up the road. Otherwise, I would have you stop by. He would love you!

  4. Liz, I do not have the words to express the sadness I feel for you. But I do know how strong you are because you are still here with us and caring for your family and making plans for the future with your new food adventure. You are so amazing to me, I wish I was more like you.

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