Julian’s day

On November 8, 2010, we welcomed our beautiful, sweet baby boy, Julian Michael Cerrato into this world.

It was a day filled with so much excitement, love and hope. As we were driving down to the hospital, we were smiling ear to ear, so excited to meet our baby boy. I remember the exact moment he entered this world, the doctor showing him to me and saying “Here is your miracle baby”. That moment will live with me forever. He was/is a very special baby, filled with so much love and life in his big, beautiful eyes.

As everything fell apart around us over the next couple of months, we continued to hope that he indeed was a miracle and that everything would turn out well but as you all know, it didn’t. Julian died nine weeks after he was born. Instead of spending days nursing my new infant baby and watching him smile at me and grow, I spent crying and yearning this horrible loss. It doesn’t seem real but it is, every day we have to live our lives without him here with us and it hurts, it really, really hurts. The only thing that gives me hope is that one day, we will be reunited and I will be able to hold my beautiful baby again in my arms and never let go again.

My “mothers day” with Julian… just a couple days after he was born

To Julian, Happy 2nd Birthday from your mother, father, big brother and sister. We love you and miss you so very much.

Julian, Thank you for the snow…. it reminds us all of you, as Lucas and Lilliana call you, “the snow boy”. They talk about you all the time and the snow makes today extra special as we remember all those days it snowed while you were here with us. We love you my handsome boy.

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